From me to you

      You left me when i needed you the most,              Now i have learned to live without your                      Love and support.....         

Hiii, There is a girl in our neighbourhood. She is 10 years old. And she is my  friend. Whenever she comes from school, she comes to our house directly. She talks to me a lot. And probably about everything. She likes my books and although she does not understand anything, she loves looking at them. I think this is good thing. She is best in school, very genius girl. Best in talking, talks to everyone. But there is one thing she is not best in and that is "Dreaming". She does not dream or maybe she does but knows that her dreams are not meant to be fulfilled. And you know what is the most bizarre thing is that marriage is the topic of the talk between a father and a daughter when the daughter is just 10 years old. When i asked her what she wants to be when she gets older, she said that she will get married as soon as she turns 18 so she does not think about anything. Although she said that she thinks about being a teacher. When i heard that, i said to her, "so what

This is happening again. This self hatred is killing me. I don't know but i am feeling so bad. Usually when this happens, i try to comfort myself through books but today that is also not working. I  am feeling ugly. I don't want to do anything and just want to cry so hard. And if you may wondering what happened to the job, did i get it or not, so the simple answer is NO. I didn't got that job and that is also a reason for me to judge my self worth. I am not able to do anything. I think my lack of confidence is never going to let me achieve my dreams. I just can't get out of my house. This anxiety is not bearable now. I think i am not good enough, not good enough to do anything. Amd i don't have anyone in my life who can help me get out of all this. But i think nobody is going to be in my life because when somebody tries, i just close all the doors possible to enter my life. But today i need that comfort. Somebody to hold hands with, somebody to share mt a

Hii, Tomorrow is rather a very scary day in my life as tomorrow is my life's first ever interview. I don't know how i am going to face all those unknown people and not cry. And the fact that this is my first interview, is an added pressure. I don't know how these things work. My heart is beating so fast. I am about to cry. I really want a place in the world where you don't have to grow up and do these grown up things. A world where you don't need money to survive. Why people have to do jobs and why they just can't sit in house and read. But somewhere deep down  in my heart i  know that this is the chance i have to just take myself out of this dark shell of anxieties. I have to be strong.  Uhhhh!! my heart just can't stop beating so fast. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. Just keeping my fingers cross and worrying till tomorrow. I want tomorrow's day to just go in a blink. OH MY GOD......

                                        Stay, don't go !                   I said                            When she was going away.                  That was the first time                  She didn't hear me,     And we've never talked after that..                                         – my mother

hiii, today i want to talk about one book that i mentioned in last post and that is " milk and honey" by " rupi kaur". this is my first ever poetry book that i read and i think i am going to read more poetry books after this one. i know so many people didn't like this poetry book because of the way it is written. some people said that it is an inspirational quotes book and not a poetry book. i got to know that this is a free verse poetry book and people were saying that if you write anything in the name of free verse poetry, it just does not make it a poem. so i don't know how to judge a poetry because this is my first one and i kust want to say that if after reading this book, i indulge myself into reading more poems than i don't think it is that bad of a book. this book has opened another world of books that was close for me so i think i should like this book. in my opinion this is book that depends on how you take it. this book has poems(quotes)

Hii, I started reading books about an year ago. At that time i didn't knew that i will stick towards reading or not, or its going to be an another failed crush of mine. Yes, that happens to me a lot. Once i am interested in something and the other day i just might don't even want to look at that or even think about that. But luckily this didn't happened with me reading books and honestly, i didn't wanted to get bored of it and i think this is the only thing which  relaxes me, which makes me forget the rest of the world and their problems and makes me live in that moment, in that story, in those characters. And i hope God doesn't take this thing away from my mind.    So now lets talk about those books which let this thing happen. Which let me love reading more. These are not the books that were published in 2018 but those books which i read this year as this is just my first year. Some of these books you might not like as though they might not impressed you so m

Hi, So after so many days of this book lying on my shelf, I finally picked this book up to read. And I am very happy that I read it. Animal farm is a novella which to be said is based on 1917 Russian Revolution. But because I don't know much about Russian Revolution or communism, I didn't read this book with that perspective. Instead I read this as a story of hunger of power, of entity,of naive dreams and hopes. The story starts with in a farm called the "Manor farm" which is owned by Mr. Jones. And there are so many animals living and working for him. But one night, a boar called "Old Major" calls out every Animal and tell them about a dream that he had seen last night, a dream of a world without humans, and tell all the animal to start a rebellion against the owner and start to live free, free from every boundaries. Few days later Old Major died. But his words still remained in The farm. All the animals were filled with passion to start a rebel

Few days back there was an article in a website called "the cut" in which an article writer Maria Smith called priyanka Chopra a "global scam artist" for marrying Nick Jonas. I don't understand why she said that. And they just got married. She didn't even had the courtesy to not talk like this about a woman on her very special day.   If she thinks that priyanka got married to Nick just to get fame in Hollywood, let me tell you one thing, she was Miss World. She is a super star in India. She does not need a man to use as a ladder to fame. Because she already has that. She is a self made woman. And saying like this about her is like demeaning those women who make their own Name in the world without any support, women who are strong, independent. I think Maria has written this because of the age difference between priyanka and Nick. If Nick was older than priyanka, she wouldn't write this. Maria had also made fun of Indian culture, which she doesn't

Hii,    I don't know how I always end up with a romantic novel. I guess because it's easy to read and you can read it in a day while other books take months ( I am talking about myself) to read.           So yesterday I read " I too had a love story"by "Ravinder singh". This is his first book and us based in a real life story of his own. Something happened in his life, which he mentioned in this book that led him to write this book and become an author.      The story starts with "Ravin" who is an engineer at infosys and is shuffling between his job and studies and he meets a girl on a matrimonial site.  Her name Is khushi. After chatting for few days ,they both fell in love and their simple love story goes on. Their first meeting, late night talks, parents meeting each other, and etc. etc. After few months the engagement got fixed and everything was going well but suddenly something happened that changed his life forever. So to know what h

I am different, We all are different.   But why it is that your different is normal but mine is not.  You are an extrovert, I accepted  that, But why my anxiety is not seen by you. Why am I called arrogant or egoistic,  Just because I am one of those few,  who just can't start a conversation.     Just because I am not comfortable going out,   you think relationships don't matter to me.    You know that I can't make friends     But you can, so help me.     Help me in coming out of this place.     this suffocating, scary, isolating place.     Hold my hand and pull me out.     But if you can't do that,     don't shove me into the darkness and feel      proud.  I know I am not happy where I am right now,  But I will be, slowly but surely, I am taking this vow to be my own friend,  to help myself out from all of this and to make my life a beautiful bliss...

I know it is a very disturbing thing to say about any country what the title is saying but trust me I was also as shattered when I got to know about it. This title that I have decided for my post is originally a documentary on a YouTube channel in which how people in rural or even urban areas of India do not want a girl as a child in their house. And it's not like this documentary is few years old and I suddenly watched it and now I am talking about it, but this documentary is the most recent one. It was posted on 18th November 2018 so I can say this still is the most culpable problem that we have and nobody even address about it. It's nobody's concern. In this documentary they showed a small village in Rajasthan and that village is running out of girls. When this question was asked that why you guys don't want girls in your house, the answer was " raising girls is very expensive. And when they grow older they might get in touch with boys which will bring disgra

1 Hi, I just completed this book by a young author Gurmehar kaur. This is her first book. Let me tell you about Gurmeher before talking about this book because I feel her story is very inspiring. So Gurmeher kaur is a student in lady shree ram college for women in Delhi university. In 2016 she posted a video about peace between India and Pakistan because so many soldiers die every single day because of the hatred between India and Pakistan. But her video went viral in 2017 after she posted a picture with a message against acts of violence in Delhi university which she said were happening because of ABVP, student federation. With this picture her video from last year also went viral in which she said "Pakistan did not kill my father, war killed him"( her father was a soldier who died after a attack by some militants in their camp.) As her video went viral, people came after her, they said that she is saying this under the influence of someone. People threatened her with ab

Yesterday was the last day of the "Kisaan mukti march" program in which thousands and thousands of farmers from across India gathered to protest against the government in Delhi. This march was organized by All India Kisan sangharsh coordination commitee, a group of 200 small and large farmer groups from around the country. This protest had two main agendas. One was to call a special parliament session of 21 days in which crisis faced by farmers should be discussed and the other one was to give higher price of their produces. These organisers invited political parties to participate in the March and support them. This march got support from the activists and left parties. Yesterday Rahul Gandhi and Arvind Kejriwal also came to the March to meet and show their support to the farmers. These past few years have seen the growing numbers of farmers protest. And not only in Delhi, but other parts of the country as well. And now the question is that although being an agricultur

Hi,       As we all know that our current government of India thinks a lot about religious people( not every religion though) and that's why they are trying hard to make The Ram Mandir, changing every possible city's name and now in this list there is something that has been done by the most religious person of this government, Mr. Yogi Adityanath — he has taught us about the caste of Lord Hanuman.           Isn't that what we wanted? I know that people are dying of hunger, unemployment, pollution, LACK OF OXYGEN, but Knowing that Hanuman ji was a dalit solves it all. Now we have everything we wanted.  Look at the irony though. On one hand Dalits are not allowed to enter into certain places, not allowed to take their Baraat in certain areas and on the other hand they are allowed to be a God. I wonder what Brahmins and Kshatriyas were doing at that time when shree Ram made Hanuman his disciple.Now I think after knowing this dalit fact by Mr. Yogi ji, I think al

Hiii,      I think everyone knows about the incident that happened in the Sentinel island few days back. There was an American missionary who illegally went to the north sentinel island to preach Christianity to the sentineles tribe, Who have lived on that island for up to 60,000 years and don't want any interference from the outside world. And that's why they attack anyone who comes near them. And that's exactly what happened with the American missionary Mr. John Chau. North sentinel island is tropical island which is a part of Andaman islands in Bay of Bengal. It is estimated that this tribe is living here for over 60,000 years. And they don't want anyone to come near them. There were so many times when people tried to make friendly contacts with them but always failed miserably.   There were so many attempts by the government in 1967 and 1970 to befriend the sentinelese. And that kind of worked out. At first sentinelese people were vulnerable to see these pe

This book is part two of the book 'The boy who loved'. As soon as I completed that book, I just started reading this book and this is one of the few books I have completed in one sitting. By the way I have only read two books before this in one sitting. So this is an accomplishment. And I am very proud of myself for that.  OK now coming back to the book. What should I say about it. I just love this book. It has everything I want to read in a love story. This story made me cry, smile, upset at the same time. After reading this book, I really want a Raghu in my life.  Now let's talk about the story of this book. So this book is also in a diary form. But this time this is not Raghu who is telling the story. This diary belongs to a girl called 'Advaita'. It's been 2 years since Brahmi has left Raghu and now Raghu lives in Dehradun, far away from his family. He has become very quiet, introvert person who just don't talk to anyone, nobody knows anything a

Hii, I know it's been months since I posted anything and I know it is not a good thing but from now I am going to be perfectly active and will post everyday or every other day. But I will be consistent.  So today we are going to talk about a book called "The boy who loved ". It is a love story turning into a tragedy kind of book. I thought that I will not pick up any love story before buying this book but I ended up with 3 romance novels. This Bollywood hangover never goes off. But I think picking up this book was not that of a bad idea.  This story has two parts and today we are talking about the first part. The story is written in form of a diary.  STORY :-  The protagonist of this story is a Bengali boy named Raghu Ganguly who has a very conservative family. Something has happened in his past that made Raghu a guy who is fed up with world and wants to die. So he is always looking for some high storey buildings from where he can jump off and die.            

Hi there, let me tell you one thing. When I was thinking about writing on this topic, I was very confused as to which youtuber I put In my favorite list because I spend most of my time on YouTube. It is like I spend 14 out of  24 hours on YouTube. That's how much I love that. So you can guess how many YouTube channels I would be watching. And choosing 5 out of them is like ridiculously difficult for me. But I tried and now I have the list of my top 5 favorite YouTube channels.  Shane Dawson :  Shane is my favorite youtuber. I just love him. I can't even express my love for him. I recently started watching Shane's channel and I went through almost every video that he had made till now. Now you can understand how much I love him.  Garrett watts :  I got to know about Garrett through Shane's vlog. Because he is friends with Shane and he is very cute. I just love him. He is so sweet, so innocent, and sometimes he does this weird things that make me laugh so hard. He

Hi guys, this post is about a book that I read recently. The name of the book is "Till The End Of Forever ". It is said to be a love story but in my opinion this is more of a thrilling or dark kind of a story. I mean this book has love in it. It is about two people who met and fell in love with each other and how one incident that happens in their life changes everything between them.          So the story starts with a girl named "Avani"and a boy named "Ayaan". They both met each other at their common friend's house and as they see each other, they feel a kind of connection and fell in love with each other.         In the beginning everything is going well and they were happy together after a long time. It is so because their past life was filled with ups and downs and after so long they both were feeling happy with each other.           But their life takes a drastic change when  Ayaan was accused of their friend's  murder. 

I don't know what is happening. I went outside with my sister and as we were about to go and I put my leg out of the house, I felt weird.        Let me tell you that I am not those perfect kinda girls who just go out and every eye turn around to get a glance of them. But I am of those girls who are always in the side of those beautiful girls that remains unnoticed. You know I don't really have any issues with not getting noticed. If people don't look at me,  I don't give a damn, and I go without even looking at anyone, in my own mood, my own world.              But today i felt weird. I felt ugly. I felt like people will be watching me instead of that pretty girl (which in this case, is my sister)  and not because of looking at me and suddenly falling in love with me, but for laughing at me.         There are so many days I feel very confident about me. I feel like I don't need anybody's acceptance to feel beautiful, to be happy but there are some day

Hi again, today I want to talk about my favorite thing and that is traveling. Oh my god.... Please God please give me enough money that I can travel. I can't even tell how I feel sitting in my room watching these instagram posts of travel bloggers going everywhere in the world. And my instagram also loves to play with my emotions. I don't even follow any blogger on instagram yet my search feed is filled with their posts.         When I will be able to do what I want.  When I could make my instagram that bomb like other bloggers. In reality my phone camera sucks. That's why I don't even click pictures for my blog. And can I give you some another news and that is I don't even have any laptop or computer.  I just blog with my phone and that's why I can't put so many effects on my blog. Okkk.. Let's keep this talk behind and talk about what are those places I think about all the time. 1. Japan  -  Japan has been in my dream list forever. I always wa

This is the second crime suspense novel that I have read. By the time I was picking up this book, I didn't knew that it was a crime novel because I don't read the descriptions about books when I pick books. And second thing is that this book was only for 68 rupees when I saw it on amazon. Seeing this the miser in me just woke up suddenly and reviews about this book were also good. So I pick it up. And my decision was not wrong.                                       I don't know why every crime novel that I pick, I feel like one can make a Bollywood movie out of it. I just can't understand that. By the way this book is written by an Indian writer, so I think he must have wrote this book thinking that one day this book will be made into a movie.          And I think this will be a good movie.  If half girlfriend can become a movie, then this book is much better and addictive than that. P. S. Half girlfriend was the first novel that I read.            Anyway

Hi again, and yes being adult is really difficult. Specially if you live in small cities like me. That's why I never wanted to grow up. I am 21. Officially adult. And it's hard being 21.and if you are a girl that is like sone pe suhaga.  Because 21 is "that age"for your family, and they starts looking for suitable boys for you. And that is what happening to me. My sister was saying that my father was talking about my marriage to my brother.            As my sister told me that, I started crying.       I am not going to get married at this age at all. No matter what happens I will not get married in at least 5 years from now. I have so many dreams, so many things I want to Do on my own,so many places I want to go alone.                   I want to do this                           And   not   this    Although I have never been out of India but dreaming about going to every place in the world makes me happy.  So happy that I cannot even tell. I r