This Rakshabandhan was not exciting for me

Hi guys, well I hope that unlike me your rakshabandhan must be good. You guys would have a lot of fun.  And spent a good  time with your family. 
      
           But this festival didn't bring happiness for me specially this time. You know I am a kind of person who is always happy. Like in any kind of situation you put me in and I will still find my way to be happy. I am a happy puppy. 



        But when it comes to go and spend some time with my relatives, I feel uncomfortable around them. And I don't know why this happens. 


          I was never very open up to them. When my mother was alive it was not as difficult as it is now. Now I don't have anybody with whom I go to my Nani's house and feel comfortable with. 


           Every year we celebrate rakhi with my cousins and all the uncles and aunts at my Nani's place.  And when my mom was with us , I genuinely used to have fun at their house but now when I go to their house I feel an emptiness. I see Every cousin talking to their mother, hugging them and their mother showering their love on their kids. 


                 And there is me and my sister sitting in a corner looking at them. Without my mom that house doesn't feel to a be a happy place for me and my sister. 


           And this year was more unbearable for me as my sister didn't came with me to Nani's house. I was all alone sitting in the corner. 

        The whole day I didn't talk to anyone. And nobody talk to me back. I was in my phone the whole day. 

          I think I don't like going there or be there because nobody Is like me. All the aunts have interest in bitching about other people so I can't talk to them. All my cousins have babies so they are always talking about their babies. And all the brothers talking to each other make me question which group should I join. 

           So this whole rakshabandhan day was boring, not fun for me but I hope everybody else must have fun with their family. 


        So basically this was an unhappy rakshabandhan for me. 

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