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I never gave my consent: book review

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Hii, I know i haven't posted anything this month because i was giving interviews after interviews and that is very scary thing for me to do. And because of all this interview thing going on, i was not able to read much. So i haven't had anything to talk about. But i somehow managed to read this one book called "I never gave my consent" by Holly Archer (pseudonym) and i loved this book. This is an autobiography i think. So this book is about Holly who lived in telford and how at the age of 14 she was pushed into the fen of prostitution by some asian men. Enduring countless violent rapes and death threats, she was forced to sleep with several men a night. She became pregnant twice and because of all this she fell into despair and she took an overdose in desperate attempt to end her life. After all this she just decided to move out from telford to Birmingham. She moved house every six months fearing her abusers hunt her down. She finally got the courage to come back
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You were my crush till you said you love me

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Hii, First of all "Happy new year". I know i am late but better late than never. So this is my first read of 2019. I know i have started this year with a romance novel. I think it shows how much single and lonely i am. Lets forget about this part and talk about this book called " you were my crush till you said you love me " by "Durjoy dutta". You know this book is not his latest work. I mean i liked his latest book like " The boy who loved" and "The boy with a broken heart". I loved those books. I think these books show his experience because he has been writing since so long. But the book which i am talking about now is not that great.   So the story of this book is, there is a guy named "Benoy" and obviously he is a young, rich brat who is in college and has the ability to buy any proffesor and obviously he met with a girl who is not rich, is geeky, has no sense of style at all and they hate each other. But slowly
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Poetry

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      You left me when i needed you the most,              Now i have learned to live without your                      Love and support.....         
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She does not dream

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Hiii, There is a girl in our neighbourhood. She is 10 years old. And she is my  friend. Whenever she comes from school, she comes to our house directly. She talks to me a lot. And probably about everything. She likes my books and although she does not understand anything, she loves looking at them. I think this is good thing. She is best in school, very genius girl. Best in talking, talks to everyone. But there is one thing she is not best in and that is "Dreaming". She does not dream or maybe she does but knows that her dreams are not meant to be fulfilled. And you know what is the most bizarre thing is that marriage is the topic of the talk between a father and a daughter when the daughter is just 10 years old. When i asked her what she wants to be when she gets older, she said that she will get married as soon as she turns 18 so she does not think about anything. Although she said that she thinks about being a teacher. When i heard that, i said to her, "so what
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This is happening again. This self hatred is killing me. I don't know but i am feeling so bad. Usually when this happens, i try to comfort myself through books but today that is also not working. I  am feeling ugly. I don't want to do anything and just want to cry so hard. And if you may wondering what happened to the job, did i get it or not, so the simple answer is NO. I didn't got that job and that is also a reason for me to judge my self worth. I am not able to do anything. I think my lack of confidence is never going to let me achieve my dreams. I just can't get out of my house. This anxiety is not bearable now. I think i am not good enough, not good enough to do anything. Amd i don't have anyone in my life who can help me get out of all this. But i think nobody is going to be in my life because when somebody tries, i just close all the doors possible to enter my life. But today i need that comfort. Somebody to hold hands with, somebody to share mt a
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tomorrow is a scary day

Hii, Tomorrow is rather a very scary day in my life as tomorrow is my life's first ever interview. I don't know how i am going to face all those unknown people and not cry. And the fact that this is my first interview, is an added pressure. I don't know how these things work. My heart is beating so fast. I am about to cry. I really want a place in the world where you don't have to grow up and do these grown up things. A world where you don't need money to survive. Why people have to do jobs and why they just can't sit in house and read. But somewhere deep down  in my heart i  know that this is the chance i have to just take myself out of this dark shell of anxieties. I have to be strong.  Uhhhh!! my heart just can't stop beating so fast. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. Just keeping my fingers cross and worrying till tomorrow. I want tomorrow's day to just go in a blink. OH MY GOD......
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                                        Stay, don't go !                   I said                            When she was going away.                  That was the first time                  She didn't hear me,     And we've never talked after that..                                         – my mother
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